I don’t have any models that I can pay. Or, to be more accurate, I don’t have any models that I can afford to pay. This leads me to using myself as subject matter.
At the beginning, the purpose of this painting was simple. Get a great photo of someone and paint it. The execution of this painting was far from simple.
36 session and one paint over later, I’ve learned how I like to paint and much about who I want to be.
The Pear Tree is more than a reproduction of my likeness. It’s a whole hell of a lot of struggle culminating into my own internal, psychological, portrait of myself.
The next painting will be deeply influenced by this experience and it will be much different.