A self portrait oil painting by Chris Beaven in the bathroom after a transplant

Who is This? (post kidney transplant)


After my transplant I was looking in the mirror at the apartment we were staying in close the hospital.

We needed to be close very close to the hospital just in case rejection happened and I needed to get there within minutes.

I stared into the mirror, drained, forlorn and wondered aloud “Who is this?”.

This was not me. Not who I wanted to be. In and out of hospitals for years, taking a ton of medication daily, unable to do what I want due to my illness, fragile…

I captured the moment to remember where I was at this point. Physically as well as psychologically. And use this knowledge every day for the rest of my life to do better.

Total time: Unknown

I spent 84 sessions on this painting and at the time I could only manage about 30 minutes a session. That would equal out to around 34 hours of painting time.

If you would like a print of this painting please send me a message with what size you would like here.

The Creation Process